A scared full moon started a most dramatic and chaotic month in Novemeber.
Sometimes i have to believe that, there are some energy just like a cycle,
if you didn’t get it once, it would come back again and again utill you get it evatually.
i’ve lost someone might be most important in my life last year at the same time.
i’ve been trying so hard to get through this and finally realized that once you put your reliance on another soul, that’s a thing meant to be failed.
You know what, when you peel all the layers of illusion , i understand that all the answer which i am so obessed with is just meaningless.
No answer ,is the best answer.
That will push you to explore it until you find your own true answer rather than someone else’s confirmation or recognition.
But i didn’t see that heavy energy came back agian after one year .
Even though i am not struggling with all the past anymore.
No regret, no nostalgia, even no caring somehow
i knew sometimes being vunerable is inevitable as a human being.
Just allow yourself to grief a little while ,like attending a funeral of your old self ,and then move on.
That was a random shopping day with the stunning sunset veiw on the road back to Mt Cook. Have been driving this way thoudsands times but not every single view was the same.
Our life is full of coincidence, where you will never know what is the real message that it want to bring to you.
A poor driver drove 60km/h ahead of us and i was not driver made a perfect day of shooting.
Sometimes we are just in a rush in our life journey, you are just so urgent to get things done instead of stopping by and just learn to enjoy that real moment.
Thanks my camera to help me record every touched moment by the nature.
Back to December, Back to Lupin season
it’s been 1 year since i stared my working-holiday life in NZ.
People keep coming in and out in my life in a double fast speed this year.
Someone just stopped by and you don’t even want them ever exsist in your life.
Someone maybe just only had a small chat you can tell is a good soul worth to explore.
i am appreciate that i finally find some kind of connection which i’ve been long for.
When you explore the external world more, it will get you through your internal self more, help you exclude all the unessentials in your life and figure it out what is your desire deep inside in this short lifespan.
Sometimes the most popular track might be not the best one
Finally catched a rare sunny day to finish kea point track
Compare to the busy hooker valley, i prefer changable view with 2 hours walk.
When the mecury retrograde was going on , it seemed nothing gonna be right.
After drove for nothing three times , the refusal of trasit visa came for no reason sucked.
i believe that there are not only energy matches between people and peole ,but also apply to people and cities.
what i know for sure is i don’t like chrischurch at all, for sure.
During the chaos of mecury retrograde, with all the dramatic stories but worked with a gang of spiritual people made me fufilled unexpectively.
A power off day with a clear sky and new moon, made it being a perfect stargazing day.
i recalled the same date one year before where i was and whom i with.
it just like a dream that you’ve mastered the queen of swords energy so well after been through all the darkness. i dealt it well and i knew i am stronger than i thought ever.
Such a sacred, peaceful view just outside of window is a best gift for you progress of growth.
The reflection of the mountain in the red wine glass .
Sitting and talking under the milky way with a lot of shooting star dancing in the sky
i will miss the hectic but fufilled days of doing readings and sharing stories for sure.
Even if we are all come from different country but with the familiar life experience,
deep inside, i knew we have some connection for some reason.
Good soul deserve better future, wish all of us can live in the life you want and it will
25 minutes walk with continuous steps to reach a stunning glacier sunset view.
i don’t know how to decribe the feeliing when i reach out the view point.
you just hope the time will stand still at that moment forever
The deeper connecttion with nature,the more understanding of yourself .
i can’t believe that i am the yougest one in this group
i will try to find a way to explain the chinese zodiac properly
The goat-rabbit friendship matches very well
Wish you all the best and hope see you again！
Since came to NZ, I’ve got a lot of life skills
Being my own hairdresser ,probably should be the top of the list.
Never have a chance to keep a long hair because of my impulsion to cut it.
No matter how ugly it looks like, all the baking food taste so good!
After muffin ,i’ve tried apple cinamon cake, lemon pudding, brownies and homemade birthday cake.
Can you imagine that all of this come from a person who used never cooking.
people will change and it will always be
Don’t try to put limitation on yourself, as you won’t reap the fruit of curiosity
This picture was taken after a severe bad weather caused major road closure in south island because of flooding.
Pinky lighting with shaky thunderstorms, torrential rain with random hail caused the power off in the whole village again.
it seems like we were experiencing the end of the world that night, but when you woke up the other day in the morning , the sun flooded into the room, there were no cloud around montain, just like a dream that nothing ever happened.
However, the followed-up cancellations and rearrangement dragged you back to reality.
it was lucky that the only sunny day was in my birthday.
Thanks god gave me the pukaki blue to me as my birthday gift.
Last year i left everything behind to chase a dream i yearn for a long time in my birthday.
Sometimes i choosed a special day to do special things ,it just kind of like a ritual to myself which determinate you moving forward both phyciallly and mentally.
After one year’s exploration in such a beatiful country, the maturity and sprituality that i’ve got is a gift from all the suffer and bless.
i finally finished my coming-of-age ceremony in my 28 years old, which was supposed to be done 10 years ago.
The first year in NZ, The third month in Mt Cook
What i’ve got not only the real gift, but also an emotional freedom to myself.
I realized that all the suffering you’ve been through is just because the hatred to yourself deep inside.
Admit you are not good enough, accept that both bright and shadow side,try to find self-worth from inner self rather than someone else, give yourself time to heal and learn to control your emotion , you are the owner of your life and you will attract more good energy to you.
When you know how to deal with your emotion and attitude, you are be able to control your own life ,that is what i am getting from this adventure.
Wish all of you can find the best version of yourself
Life is short, just try to be with everything you love.
-The end-
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